Yeah, right. How can I be happy with all the pressures of the world on my shoulders – and this being my favorite time of the year damnit. But sometimes, it seems relentless and this week I went down. Down for the count in my mind and I’m coming up for air. Well, sort of.
This week it got dark for me and it’s taken me everything to fake smiles throughout the day only wishing to be home and in bed to sleep off my worries because Lord knows, there’s plenty of them. I had to even post about it on Facebook to our group just needing some sense of, “I’m not, alone am I,” and sadly, I’m not. The buck stops here after hearing from others. I’m choosing, or should I say, making myself get out of my mind bubble filled with negative thoughts and the ‘why me’ questions constantly nagging me. And guess what? Instead, I’m answering ‘why is this always happening to me’ right now with ‘because it’s a part of my story.”
Why am I sharing this with you? Because we’ve all been there and for me, transparency is who I am today with hopes that others going through the feeling of defeat know 1. they are not alone; 2. in due time, this too shall pass; and 3. there is sunshine on the other side. We simply have got to hang in there and when possible, lean on family, friends or this community of badass women making bold moves with an attitude of ‘I will survive’. (Or watch the Masked Singer, Real Housewives or 90 Day Fiancé – my go to LOL)
So, if you’ve been feeling the weight of career and life, reach out to someone. Only you can make the choice to move on, get over or and be happy. Just never. Ever. Give. Up.
Your homework assignment if you related is to… get to writing, as I did this morning, all the things to be grateful for. Do it. Do it now and you’ll be reminded of all the goodness in this world.
Barbara + Riley (My support pup. Wink.)